lates

is from community.

this hippie dude.. says lates when leaving a room. and the other person is like

'isnt later already a short word??'

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i loved community, yeah loved. until the final episode of the first season. screw it. i liked it till it lasted.

u know what i loved the most. ALL THE FREAKING TV SHOW REFERENCES ..

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i totally get them. ahha..

enough already

the author

of all things.

this is how God is described as.. ofcourse i got this from a movie.

i liked it. i cant talk to God no more. no more talks. no more whats ups.. nothing. its only hi.. and bye. cant seem to put much thought into it. i guess God would reciprocate similarly. i mean.. meaahhh

chika.. i know u wont like all this.. wanna delete all the posts. wanna delete the blog. maybe i will..

just cant shake it offf.. cant repress.. cant delude myself of a better tomorrow. hope has exhausted i guess.

i think.. the root cause is...

i've always known this..

that i'm not doing what im supposed to be doing here. on this planet.. in my life. my purpose is not being served.

i definitely dont wanna be a freaking tech analyst. what da freak. i dont even know what that means. i dont know what im doing daily at my work. any person can do this. i wanna make tv shows/ movies/ or.. write comic book story lines... auiehiauheuiahiehauihuiehaiuheiauhieuhaiueh

yeaahh.. mayhaps my kids will.. auiehaiuheuiaheiuahiuehiauheiuahiuahe

im such a douche. lates

what is wrong

with tv these days. i want a happy tv show for once.

come on.. everyone wants to make a hard hitting, resonating with todays times and audience, tv. I DONT WANT THAT.

gimme, happy stuff. where everything goes right. no breakups of the girl and guy we're rooting for in the show, no losing of any fights of the group we're tuning in to watch the show, no life lessons learned the hard way and if its a bad lesson, then the lesson being this is life, life is tough, we need to grow with it kinda stuff.

cartoons. thats the only sane thing. even there the world tries to make it hip .. booorriinngg...

movies watched:

true grit
black swan
king's speech

tv show

commuity

songs
NOTHING ! ! !

toons
NOTHING

comics:
NOTHING

books

NOTHING

why .. aiuehuiaehuiaheuihaiuehuiaheuiahuiehauiheuiaiueahie

LA BIBLIOTECA !!

The wicked flee when none pursueth.

Wanted to open with something other than what I wanna write. so, no connection. Just random.

is that flee-eth? would there be fleeeth? i dont know. my english sucks. I wana have my kids talk in the original King's english. All prim and proper and not the voabulary and diction i got.. from TV.

man.. im so old already. thinking of what i would have my kids do. probably live my 'unfulfilled life' through them. sheeesshh!!!..

there is this edge to the decadence lately. its like im in a rut. just cant get out of it. no wait. im not getting out of it. dont see the point. my life is 30 and its already over. i vaguely remember being active and atleast humorous about stuff. now, i dont even see the cynical point of life. i just cant seem to care. there is no point in being a cynic. i must be a super cynic. someone whos cynical to everything even to being cynical.

i dont hang with friends. do i have friends? do i want friends? when i think about it.. i cant seem to care about the question. my mind is giving the feedback.. ' huh? friends? what? ' this is what my mind says.

everything i start, i stop in the middle. cos somewhere down the line, i start thinking, why am i doing this? and i gradually stop doing that. am i too lazy?????? is it that simple? i must be. but why? when i think about it. i work hard at my work, which i dont want to. dont mind doing any chores or whatever at home. so what is it.

i probably dont work as hard to do what i really want to. that doesnt even compute to my brain right now. its shutdown. im typing this. i dont know how.
as always.. tv is the one constant. is it though? i mean, i can go without tv, what would happen if i cut off myself from tv and movies... aah.. im already bored of this tangent.

why did i wanna write this? i dont wanna post this. but i will. cos i sabotage my life. and then, i guess i kinda relish the misery. -:

this feeling normally passes. but today.. its still stuck with me. i would block it out, but it just wont let go today.

im taking deep sighs every 5 minutes. i see defeat everywhere. and cant seem to care about it. just go on. but am i going on??

im standing still. im not moving. im not even putting up a fight anymore. what the hell am i wrirting.

pathetic.

my chikas

and its very stupid...not worth the effort

Last beverage – lemon tea

Last call- chotu
Last text message – bachuuuuuuuuuuu :)

Last song you listened to – um…the day I died…by just jack
Last time you cried – yesterday…cos of tummy ache K yes I cry for smallest things

HAVE YOU EVER.

Dated someone twice? – Um no
Kiss someone and regretted it? - No
lost someone special? – No not anyone special
been depressed? – Loooooooooooong time ago

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS.
Black

Red

White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU.
Made new friends – the year just started…..! all of ‘em from previous years
Fallen out of love - No
Laughed until you cried – been a long time
Met someone who changed you - hmmmm
Found out who your true friends were – didn’t need to. The title ‘friends’ goes out to only the ones who are true…at least in my life J
Found out someone was talking about you – don’t know…don’t care. How many people on your friends list on fb do you know in real life – evry1… almost
How many kids do you want to have – 2
Do you have any pets – yup
Do you want to change your name – nope. What did you do for your last birthday – loooooooooooveeeeeeeeeed it!!!!!!
What time did you wake up today – 1:30…pm :p
What were you doing at midnight last night – watching body of liesName something you CANNOT wait for –right now.......go homeeeeeeeeee!
Addicted to –u know J
What is one thing you wish you could change about your life – sarcasm…I am… very K
What are you listening to right now – background noise…at work
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom – hmmmmm Thomas? Know a ThomasWhat's getting on your nerves right now? – The depressing environment
Favorite jewellery – as in the variety? Or something I possess? I like earrings. But if u talking abt something precious…then diamonds :)

Relationship Status – :)
Zodiac sign – who cares?
Male or female - female
Natural Hair color? – Black
Hair color now – black
Need Glasses? – Yup K
One strange fascination – to watch movies back to back…for one whole day!
Height – 5'3 n a bit more J
Do you have a crush on someone – No

What do you like about yourself? – That I’m worthy of someone :)
Piercings - 4
Tattoos - not interested
Righty or lefty - righty